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Goodbye Kim Jonghyun

Goodbye Kim Jonghyun

Baby I’m so lonely, so lonely.

I feel like I’m alone.

Still, I don't wanna hide if from you.

But I’m used to just holding it in.

Understand me.’

- Jonghyun, Lonely


Today, the world has lost one of its most beautiful and kind souls. Kim Jonhyun was a member of famous K-pop group, SHINee which debuted in 2008. He also established himself as a successful solo artist, and composed for many other artists. Not only was Jonghyun a brilliant and talented artist but he was a kind, hardworking and unforgettable individual.


Today, he took his life.


I remember the exact moment I found out about this. My friend sent me an article over Snapchat, and in all honestly, I thought it was a joke. I remember typing in ‘jonhyun’ into Google and when I saw multiple results for articles covering his passing, I knew it was real. I’m not afraid to admit that the news brought me to tears - it brought many to tears. I was, and still am, absolutely shocked. There were no signs and that made me realised, you have no idea what someone is going through. Jonghyun was preparing for a solo concert in December, and had reportedly film a music video for his comeback. He had plans, and aspirations for the future so how could anybody expect this?


Articles quote his last message was a text to his sister: ‘Please let me go. Tell me I did well. Final farewell.’


How much pain must have he been in to decide suicide was the only way? It’s strange because I don’t know him personally but it hurts, it really fucking hurts. And I know many other people are also hurting after hearing of Jonghyun’s passing. 


Death is typically regarded as something far away, something distant, but the truth is that it’s always a possibility. Even though I realise this, it’s difficult to process and accept. I can’t bring myself to listen to Jonghyun’s songs right now, it’s too painful. I want to have happy memories of him, I do have happy memories of him. I know it’ll take time to recover. Sometimes I wish I could switch off my emotions, I know it sounds stupid but one can only take so much pain. I know that I have to face this and by writing this, I’m gaining a degree of closure. This is my goodbye to someone I have admired and respected for the longest of times.


I offer my deepest condolences to his family, friends and loved ones. Even though we have lost an irreplaceable star, Jonghyun’s legacy will last forever. You shall remain in our hearts


Goodbye Kim Jonghyun, and thank you for everything.


Please don’t be afraid to reach out for help, there are so many people that want to offer their support. It takes only a second to search up your country’s hotline. Talk to someone; a friend, a family member, someone. I know how it feels to feel absolutely isolated and helpless but you aren’t alone. Please take care of one another, and look out for each other.



Mental health at university

Mental health at university